Friday, September 21, 2007


It is interesting to see how many words have the word "rage" embedded in them. I feel like one of those words right now. I don't know how to continue trying to feel normal when I'm jacked-up on hormones and waiting for the end of another failed cycle. These injectable hormones make me feel like someone, something, I've never felt before. I feel such intense pressure in my head from the severe headaches they cause and I have this rage inside me because I just want this to fucking work. I keep telling myself:

Don't get discouraged.
Have an alcoholic beverage.
It can take months to get pregnant, on average.
Don't disparage.
I wish we had insurance coverage.
The cost of these drugs is outrageous.
At least I have the help of amazing doctors. To not would be a tragedy.

And mostly:

Keep up the courage to continue.

It is all worth it in the end.