Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Nuffy Node

Well, I guess my body decided now would be a good time to get a head cold. I haven't had one in over 2 years, and I finally get one when I'm pregnant. I've been feeling great, pregnancy wise. Now I have this cold and I can't sleep. Poor Rob is suffering from what seems like allergies. He has been severly congested since September. I feel so bad for him. I feel bad for me to because I have to endure his frustrations and grumpy mood since he doesn't feel good. Both of us had to sleep elevated tonight because we'd both start coughing. It obviously didn't work too well for me since it is 5 am and I'm up typing on the computer.

I am going to go to Wal-Mart later and get us an air purifier. I have been telling Rob about it for a few months now, and he has managed to put me off... until now. I think there is something about our room that is causing us to be congested. It seems to me that ever since the hurricanes, our room has a different smell or feel. I can't place it and neither of us can find it. Rob even pulled up the corners of the carpet to see if there was any mold. Everything was dry as a bone.

On a lighter note, I got the results back from my Hcg levels. The first test came back at 617 and the second came back at 1474. I also had a progesterone reading of 29.7 and they like to see anything over 12. My numbers were great and it made me feel comforted to know everything is going well.

I wish I could sleep. This is night two of crappy sleep. My cold started in my throat, went to my nose and clogged my head and ears. Now it seems to be moving to my chest. I wish it'd just move out completely. Ah well, it will soon enough.

Jessica, at Dr. Loy's office, gave me a list of medications I can take during pregnancy. The list included Sudafed. I took some last night and it didn't seem to do much good. I think I'll just stay away from it then.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

It's official

I got the blood test results back today from the doctor's office and it's official! I'm definitely pregnant! I will go get blood drawn again tomorrow to make sure my HCG levels are increasing correctly. They like to see an increase of at least 66% in 48 hours. I have no doubt that my levels will be fine.

My unofficial due date is October 6, 2005. I am going to get my October baby! I will go for my 7-week ultrasound in a little over two weeks and Dr. Loy will be able to give me a better estimation of when the baby will be here. We should be able to see the heartbeat too.

Last weekend, when Rob and I found out, we went to Lee's Lakeside for a celebratory dinner. We both ordered soda for dinner and giggled like teenagers as we toasted with our Coke and Sprite. We went to the book store on Saturday and I purchased two books on pregnancy, one of which is a journal type book to track my feelings, cravings, measurements and other stuff. It tells me day-by-day what is going on with the baby and with me. It is very detailed oriented, which I love.

I've been feeling some symptoms. I am pretty tired in the afternoons and my boobs are big and sore. My sense of smell has been heightened, but not the the point of nausea. I'm hoping I don't get morning sickness. My mom said she didn't have it too bad, so I'm hoping I don't either.

Oh yeah, did I forget to mention my emotional state? Yes, I'm a crying wreck. They are happy tears, which is good. They come at a moment's notice and for simple things like walking down the baby aisle at Publix. I think Rob thinks it's cute. Hopefully he holds that sentiment as my pregnancy progresses.

Last night I had a sharp pain near my belly button. It didn't go away all night and it kept me from sleeping. I lost it around 2am and started crying uncontrollably. It was after I had gone online to find out possible causes for this mysterious pain. I read all about ectopic pregnancies and I have since officially decided NOT to research stuff like that. I'm going to keep a positive outlook for my pregnancy. I am healthy and my baby will be healthy too. Anyway, I called the doctor this morning and we suspect it is just ligament pain from my growing uterus. I also have lots of scar tissue around my belly button from my 3 surgeries, so I wouldn't be surprised if that is being stretched and causing pain.

I can't begin to describe the feeling I have. I feel like a walking miracle. The process to grow a baby is certainly nothing short of a miracle. I want to bask in each moment and be amazed at the wonderment of a life inside me. I feel so blessed that Rob and I were able to conceive naturally. The thought that I have his baby inside me is so emotionally overwhelming. I love him beyond words. This is truly a miracle.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

The fates have smiled upon me

There's really no other way to say this so I'll just get it over with...


I took a HPT on Friday, January 28, 2005 and after a few very tense minutes, a beautiful, long anticipated and very faint second line appeared! I was in absolute shocked bliss! It was like winning the lottery. I had to check the "winning ticket" over and over to make sure I read it correctly. I finally decided that I had a winner and burst into tears. I repeated over and over,
"Thank you, God! Thank you, God!" I absolutely balled. I couldn't hold it in. I had groceries in the car, Emma in her crate and I could barely stand because I was completely overwhelmed with emotion.

I told Rob that night when he got home from work. I had quickly run to Target to get him a baby frame and a bib that read, "I love Daddy." I put the pregnancy test strip in the frame and put it in the envelope that the tests came in. He looked at it and put it down to read the card. Then he did a triple-take and realized what he was looking at. He dropped the frame like it was a hot potato, and looked at me and said, "Oh my god! For real!?" I hugged him and told him he was going to be a daddy. We both cried and hugged. It was a beautiful moment.